Imagining God: A Nested Meditation

I imagine God.

I imagine God
in my own image.

I imagine God
in my own image
with my own righteousness.

I imagine God
in my own image.
With my own righteousness,
I create my very own god.

I imagine God
in my own image
with my own righteousness.
I create my very own god,
forgetting that I cannot imagine the infinite.

I imagine God
in my own image
with my own righteousness.
I create my very own god,
forgetting that I cannot imagine the infinite
Divine Being.

I imagine god
in my own image
with my own righteousness.
I create my very own god,
forgetting that I cannot imagine the infinite
Divine Being whom I find in Silence.



Rainy Day Nested Meditation

The sun shines.

The sun shines
although hidden behind clouds.

The sun shines.
Although hidden behind clouds
the sun shines just as brightly, as steadily, as always.

The sun shines
although hidden behind clouds.
The sun shines just as brightly, as steadily, as always,
even when all I see are rain gray clouds.

The sun shines.
Although hidden behind clouds,
the sun shines just as brightly, as steadily, as always.
Even when all I see are rain gray clouds,
I believe the light of the sun sustains my life.

The sun shines,
although hidden behind clouds.
The sun shines just as brightly, as steadily, as always,
even when all I see are rain gray clouds.
I believe the light of the sun sustains my life as
The Love of the Son sustains my Life.


Palimpsest

Before my dark ink stains
The page is lined white light
Full of emptiness
Quiet, content in its expansive is-ness
Not knowing its only reason for being
Is to hide beneath my thoughts
To become the obscured pristine depths
Beneath my wordy islands

I myself
Am just such
Ego and personality scribbled
Over pure bright light
Beneath my me-ness
Lies the Imago Dei
Light and love
Glimpsed, on occasion,
Under the endless words
That I call me.

Dust to Dust: A Nested Meditation





I am just dust.

I am just dust
feeling like something more.

I am just dust.
Feeling like something more,
I believe my own thoughts.

I am just dust
feeling like something more.
I believe my own thoughts
until I find Silence.

I am just dust
feeling like something more.
I believe my own thoughts.
Until I find Silence,
I do not know myself.

I am just dust
feeling like something more.
I believe my own thoughts
until I find Silence.
I do not know myself
to be sacred dust.

I am just dust
feeling like something more.
I believe my own thoughts
until I find Silence.
I do not know myself
to be sacred dust,
sparkling and dancing. 

I am just dust
feeling like something more.
I believe my own thoughts.
Until I find Silence,
I do not know myself.
To be sacred dust
Sparkling and dancing
in Divine Love is my true self.

To Write About Peace

What a wonderful day I’ve had
A quiet morning
waking when I chose
to a still quiet room and world

 Brunch
made by Wendy
eggs, bacon, bread
coffee and tea

the quiet clean up time
with Wendy and I moving
softly around each other
in her small kitchen

afternoon with other friends
listening to music
in a kind of bar
a kind of blues, gospel,
zydeco, rock, whatever mix

back to Wendy’s for a quiet time
then with Wendy back 
to Sharon and Tom’s
for their delicious dinner

wine & salad
roast & horseradish
mashed potatoes & gravy
green beans & creamed corn
fruit & merinque
poetry on the table

an hour more
of relaxed conversation
then back to Wendy’s

A perfect day
with special friends
in a special place

under it all
lies the children
and adults
of Gaza

The uncertain
frightened
people of Israel

I would write
prayers for peace
if I felt worthy

Two Ducks

Two ducks we saw them
Male and female
We saw them

Unperturbed
By the suddenly snowy river
Around them
Snow white
Ripples whisper
Waters shimmer

We walk past
They take no notice
Nonetheless
We give them thanks
With our appreciation

i am me and more

It began, for me, with the reading Irina chose for our morning contemplative prayer group. Well, that is, the contemplative prayer group that happens for me in the morning, but as it is a Zoom group, it happens at many different times for the participants. Which is kind of wondrous in its own right, isn’t it? Our centering prayer group happens at the same time, and simultaneously at many different times, for the participants.

So what was this reading that so impacted me? Well, Irina told us it was from a book by Thomas Keating, and she told us the name of the book, and she promised to email the quote and reference to us – which is good because all other specifics are lost to me.

But this i do remember – the reading made me think that maybe if we did not capitalize the word “I”, maybe if it were always lower case, like me and you and us, like mine and yours and ours – maybe then we would find it easier to sometimes give up our preferences, our angers, our grievances and accept i as having no more – or less – importance than you. (And so i now have even more appreciation for the poetry of e.e. cummings.)

At that point i realized that i had just felt my own way around to the second great commandment, which is, we are told, like unto the first, “Love your neighbor as yourself.” (Mark 12:31).

And it seems to me that once i give up that isolated, over-powering “I”, then it is so much easier to know myself to be so much more than an isolated “I.” Lower case i is marvelously part, with you, of an uppercase Unity.

Namaste

Elusive Peace

If you want peace in the world, be peace. Thich Nhat Hanh
I am become her Hamas
She, my Israel
How is it that we are family
To all others
Yet enemies to each other
Launching blame like bombs

Though it seem pure hubris
Blind, self-centered hubris
To abrogate to our petty fight
The horror of this new old war
Yet this is the only way
I can begin to grasp
The terrifying reality of grievances
That barricade love
And murder forgiveness

I cannot judge the world harshly
Without knowing myself
Part of the holocausts we create.

Envy

Does summer begrudge spring its newness?
Does autumn envy summer its brightness?
Does winter covet autumn’s crispness?
Does spring resent winter’s cold?

Ah, no -
Nature is not that foolish.

Summer knows
There is no brightness without new birth.
Autumn knows
There is no crispness with bright growth.
Winter knows
There is no cold without crisp color.
Spring knows
There is no rebirth without cold death.

Ah, yes
Only humans are so foolish

To begrudge the other
To envy the different
To covet the younger
To resent the strange

To divide life into seasons
And worth into measures