Fantasies of forgiveness
Form my dreams

Realities of resentment
Preempt my wakings

I dream of forgiveness
In a time of anger

I wake to grudges
In a time of sorrow

I know myself
Incapable of contentment

I fear myself
Undeserving of understanding 

I pray

Casting my prayer
Out and up with the birds
Flying outside my window
After the night’s storm

I quake
Feeling my longing
Stir like the leaves
Dancing careless
In the morning breezes

Let there be lightness
Let there be love
Let there be less self
And more me

Amen